Commission Drive

To request a commission, send an email to with the following: The type of commission you want The brief; would you like? Pose, facial expressions, clothing, mood, colors, etc Any references you have (photos,...



This is incredibly late, but my autumn was far from without stress so this just fell to the wayside. Either way, I tried my hand at doing Inktober last year and while I only...


Ember Verrix

Meet Ember Verrix, my Tiefling rogue in the new D&D 5th ed campaign Empire: Sanctuary Lost. Seeing as I’ve recently finished my stint as Arkara in AngelArts’ Mass Effect Collision campaign I got roped...


Mental Abuse, a small epiphany

I was thinking about my last visit to the psychologist the other night, as you do when you’re trying to fall asleep and your brain just keeps spinning stuff around, and it hit me...


Why I won’t LP/Stream Dark Souls and the likes

I’ve been binge watching Extra Play’s series on Dark Souls (with the under title “Dan sucks at Dark Souls”) lately and found myself oddly intrigued by the game. I’d previously heard about Dark Souls, how...


What a long, weird trip it’s been…

This entire year has been different, tough, stressful and filled with anxiety while at the same time had some of the best moments. It’s been weird in general, and quite the roller coaster. Last...



I haven’t had the time to type up a decent post-con report of this years Torucon that was this past weekend, but I did finally set up my cosplay section here on Eevia! Feel...


Arkara’s Nightmare

I made this piece after main squad’s session 7 of the Mass Effect tabletop RPG that I’m a part of. It was a chilling and spooky session, and all around awesome! My poor Arkara...


Commission; Rayne T’kai

I’ve been on a binge and drawing for the Mass Effect RPG campaign I’m a part of and one of the other players commissioned me to do a portrait of his character Rayne as...


Maeva Cadash Inquisitor Tarot

After spending a lot of time drooling over the absolutely gorgeous tarot like cards in Dragon Age Inquisition I figured I’d try making one for my own Inquisitor. And… I’m actually quite pleased so...


“Imagine; I used to have really long blonde hair, always wearing…

“Imagine; I used to have really long blonde hair, always wearing heels, lots of make-up. I had been someone who was highly feminised and had chosen to look that way, partly because I was 6ft 3in but also I was into that aesthetic. I knew it had to be stripped away. I knew this would be an important part, not just for my work but in terms of my own development, because I would be confronting elements of myself that I didn’t want to confront (…) To see yourself displayed as unattractive, large, masculine, it’s quite tough… But I know it’s just perspective. A social conditioning that causes us to view these traits in a woman in a negative way.” — Gwendoline Christie

This is actually quite interesting to me, as a female who struggles with trying to be feminine.
For most of my life I’ve been the type of person who wears pants and an oversized t-shirt because it’s practical. I grew up with two older brothers who got me into some of the things they were into (old american cars, video games etc). At the same time, I’ve always liked feminine things, I looooved dresses when I was little (until I realized climbing trees in them wasn’t all that easy), playing dress up, I like makeup (even though I very rarely can be arsed to use it), I’ve been interested in horses since I were little and so on and so forth.

For as long as I can remember I’ve felt that the rest of  the world sees me as unattractive and masculine (and large in a sense, I’ve been called fat for as long as I’ve been in school).
And every time I try to dress girly or wear makeup out, there’s always someone commenting on how it doesn’t suit me or give me disgusted looks.
It’s even bled into my cosplays as I feel terrible whenever I try to go for a “pretty” or “girly” character. One point in case being when I wore my (not quite finished) Belldandy cosplay to a con. I kept feeling stupid, out of place and generally like I wasn’t “supposed to” be in that particular cosplay, despite my deep seated love for the character.

I don’t even know if there’s a point in there somewhere, I just found the contrast/similarities interesting.


Keyboard practice

I just spent about two hours with my keyboard and youtube, scribbling down parts of And End Once and For All (Mass Effect 3, Clint Mansell) from this video.
And I sort of almost, maybe, possibly can play some of it…. Considering I’ve barely touched a keyboard or a piano in oh, I don’t know, 15 years? (and I couldn’t really play it back then either, I was sort of just plonking random keys).
I’d say I did alright. *proud*
Mostly posting to show off to my friend David who put in the request for me to learn it XD